I was thinking this morning about how good God is. When I went off birth control, I prayed daily that He would allow me to, if it was His will, get pregnant right away, protect me from horrible cramps if I didn’t (I used to throw up from the pain), and protect me from hormonal migraines. Of course I prayed, and still pray, that if it’s His will, He will protect me from miscarriage. As I have expressed before, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that His plan is best – both for me and for Baby. I was just thinking how sweet it was of Him to allow me the gift of carrying one of His children this far and for Him to let it happen so quickly, especially when my heart breaks for the women who must wait. A woman at work recently went in for polyp surgery; they were going to try to just remove the polyps from her uterus, but when they got in there, they had to give her a complete hysterectomy. She and her husband had been trying to get pregnant for ten years. I pray that the Lord would comfort her. I think of a sweet friend of mine who has lost two precious babies, and I grieve with her in her losses and her struggle to get pregnant. Her walk with God has deepened immensely, and her faith radiates from her. I realize that I do not deserve this gift – just the opportunity – that we’ve been given, and this week I have been truly, deeply thankful for it.
I am still nervous with three weeks to go until the end of the first trimester. However, I am trying very hard not to approach life with the mindset of “waiting for the other shoe to drop.” We get to hear the heartbeat in just 5 days – next Wednesday, and I keep praying God will show us a strong heartbeat on that monitor. Updates to come…
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