Deciding to try

I've been waiting for the right moment in our lives to blog; just "blogging about nothing" doesn't really appeal to me as it does to some. Today was a big day in the life of the Eberhart's. I had to pick up my birth control pills from Albertsons today and mentioned this to Ryan before we headed out to breakfast, and he said "ok." In the car, however, he asked "what if we just don't pick up your pills?" When I asked what he meant, it led to a conversation about getting pregnant. We have decided to stop trying not to get pregnant but not try like obsessed people, either. Wow. This is mind-blowing to me! I've been waiting for this moment for such a long time. In recent months, I have begun to pray for God's timing. My specific prayer was that God would lessen my desire for children if it wasn't His will for us to have them. My prayer was for God to increase Ryan's desire for children when His timing was close. My prayer was that, and still is, He would reveal His perfect timing to us and He will protect this process. I have mixed emotions - I'm sure all the normal ones of being nervous about our lives changing, money, etc... After seeing some very close friends have miscarriages, I'm scared about the process of getting and being pregnant a full nine months with a healthy baby. But mostly, I am so excited to start trying! I'm so excited to start a family! I can't wait for God's perfect timing in this, and whatever He has for us. I'm praying for patience, as I know it could take awhile, but as God has carried me through so much more in my life, I KNOW I can trust Him with this. He directs our paths. I am still not going to post my blog until I am pregnant and past the first trimester, as Ryan and I have always agreed to wait to tell people in our lives about me being pregnant until this time occurs. Wow. Updates to follow and someday to read. :)