10 weeks

How Far Along: 10 weeks

Size of baby: kumquat

Sleep: Good, thanks to the Unisom the doctor said to take for the morning sickness

Total Weight Gain: +3.9

Symptoms: belly's getting bigger sooner this time than with Zooey; morning sickness (worst in evenings, just like with Zooey); headaches; some round ligament pain; exhaustion

Movement: Although baby is stretching, doing somersaults and rolls, it's still too soon to feel it.

Maternity Clothes: pants & belly bands

Go-to eats: lemonade

Best moment of the week: I don't know why, but 10 weeks feels like an accomplishment of some sort. Perhaps because most of baby's critical development is complete.

Gender: Who knows but God :)

What I wish people knew: That I'm sorry if I seem so disconnected or seem like a bad friend. I just get so tired sometimes I can't focus. I wish I could tell my sweet Zooey a definite time I'd be feeling better and that she could understand that it breaks my heart when I can't play with her like I used to when I feel so sick. Thankfully, she's a very sweet girl who says, "It's ok Mommy. Feel better."

What I’m looking forward to: The end of morning sickness, the second trimester, movement, hearing the heartbeat on the doppler (hopefully before or at my next appointment on 3/1)

Milestones: The most critical portion of Baby's development is complete.

I am finding it harder to bond early with this baby than I did with Zooey. I am still praying for the baby and want him/her to develop well and am at times very excited for him/her to join our family, it's just harder to bond. I don't know why? Maybe because the morning sickness is so much worse than it was with my first pregnancy, maybe it's because Zooey keeps me so busy, I don't know. I'm praying that God helps me bond with the baby and grows him/her to be strong, healthy and smart. I have a feeling that once I first feel those movements, the bond will grow.

Zooey has started putting her Little People in her shirt and saying there's a baby in her tummy but they're too small to come out. :) I think she gets more than we even think she does. She's so cute! The other day, she was praying, "Thank You God, Mommy, Daddy. Thank You God baby mommy's tummy." She pats my belly and says, "It's ok, baby," and "No throw up, feel better Mommy." I think she's going to be a great, loving big sister. She's very nourturing and empathetic.